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  Amarrah Brewer is desperate and grief-stricken.

  For ages, the town of Bitterburn has sent tribute to the Keep at the End of the World, but a harsh winter leaves them unable to pay the toll that keeps the Beast at bay. Amarrah volunteers to brave what no one has before—to end the threat or die trying.

  The Beast of Bitterburn has lost all hope.

  One way or another, Njål has been a prisoner for his entire life. Monstrous evil has left him trapped and lonely, and he believes that will never change. There is only darkness in his endless exile, never light. Never warmth. Until she arrives.

  It’s a tale as old as time… where Beauty goes to confront the Beast and falls in love instead.

  Table of Contents

  About the Book

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Copyright Page

  Acknowledgments

  Prologue

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  Chapter Twenty-Seven

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  Chapter Twenty-Nine

  Chapter Thirty

  Chapter Thirty-One

  Chapter Thirty-Two

  Chapter Thirty-Three

  Epilogue

  Author’s Note

  Bitterburn

  Ann Aguirre

  For every “witch” who’s ever been blamed

  for pointing out a problem instead of

  those who caused it in the first place

  Copyright Information

  BITTERBURN

  Copyright © 2020 by Ann Aguirre

  Kindle Edition

  Edited by Johanie Martinez-Cools

  Cover art by Indigo Chick Designs

  Print design by Indigo Chick Designs

  Proofreading by Isabel Ngo

  Formatting by BB eBooks

  Content warning: This story contains violence, dark magic, death, and mentions torture (off-page).

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events, and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner and are not to be construed as real. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

  All Rights Reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced, scanned, or distributed in any form whatsoever, without written permission from the author except for brief quotations embodied in critical reviews or articles.

  Acknowledgments

  First, thanks to the readers who are still with me after twelve years of stories.

  I’ve always wanted to do a Beauty and the Beast retelling, so I could fix everything that bothered me about the original. Readers, I’m so pleased with how this turned out, and I hope you love Bitterburn as much as I do.

  Without delay, let me thank those who support me and offer moral support when I need it most: Rachel Caine, Christa Desir, Bree Bridges, Lilith Saintcrow, Kate Elliott, Yasmine Galenorn, Alyssa Cole, Donna Herren, Thea Harrison, Shawntelle Madison, and Charlotte Stein.

  So much appreciation to Skyla Dawn Cameron at Indigo Chick Designs for the gorgeous cover art. This is a cool story—I bought the cover art premade years ago because I fell in love with it, and I sat on it until I hatched the perfect idea like a dragonling from an egg. I studied the image. ‘Doesn’t it look like a frozen keep? But why it is frozen?’ Without this cover, Bitterburn wouldn’t exist, and that would be a shame as I’m so proud of this book.

  My editor, Johanie Martinez-Cools, polished this book expertly, and she’s a dream to work with; I will never let her go. Her suggestions were flawless, and I loved squeeing with her, as she was the first person to finish reading the story after I did. Thanks also to Isabel Ngo for the wonderful proofreading. I couldn’t do this without the whole Tessera team.

  Finally, thanks to my family. I appreciate their support more than I can say.

  Please enjoy this first installment of Gothic Fairytales. I hope the story offers a bit of respite from the real world and that you look forward to the next one.

  Prologue

  In my tenth winter, I discovered that a monster bided at the Keep at the End of the World. We didn’t call it that, of course; that was the poetic name granted by minstrels and troubadours who romanticized such a foreboding fortress. They gazed from a distance, imagined the mysteries within, wrote their odes, and passed through, ensuring that others would come to gawk and marvel.

  Villagers just called the citadel Bitterburn, for the frozen lake that surrounded it. Born from a lack of creativity perhaps—our town bore the same name, and I didn’t refine much upon it. Back then, I listened to the whispered stories with wide-eyed awe and ate roasted chestnuts with vicarious glee as the merchants packed crates full of tribute—dried fish, spices, and grain—to get the beast to leave us be. That winter I had a new, red coat and shiny black shoes, and all my friends had plenty of wood to keep them warm.

  In my fifteenth winter, the stories were less riveting. I had someone special then and we walked out together, whispering of secrets, the details of which I’ve long since forgotten. Supplies were a bit scarce, but we ate more porridge and made do during the long ice. I remember that Owen and I kissed beneath a tree laden with snow, and as our mouths touched, shy and tentative, the boughs broke and dumped white all over us.

  He had nothing, did Owen, but it didn’t matter. I loved his crooked smile and his scarred hands; he was apprenticed to the smith, and one day, he would make the nails to build our houses, staves for barrels filled with our beer, and shoes for the animals that worked our land. We only had to hold on through a few more winters. But Owen took ill when I was ten and nine. He died of fever before the thaw. Life was bleak and unfair. That was the lesson I learned that season, engraved on my heart with indelible ink.

  In my twentieth winter, the town of Bitterburn barely saw spring. We went from cold to cold with two scant months of sunlight. The farms brought little to harvest, and we could scarcely afford to send anything to the keep. Yet the Burgher insisted, and so we did, out of fear of terrible consequences. My anger grew as people starved.

  In my twenty-first winter, I’d had enough. I would go to the keep myself and see an end to this, one way or another.

  1.

  In the back of the miller’s cart, I huddle deeper into my gray wool cape.

  Despite my attempt to sneak away, my family has followed me to the town square. Da shouts at his wife as I try to make myself smaller, my meager belongings arrayed around me. I wish I still had something that belonged to my mother, but Da sold everything of hers, including the precious storybook she made for me. My sisters are weeping, barely tall enough to see over the bottom of the cart. Ignoring the dispute, folks go about their business, carrying baskets and drawing water from the well. Though we’re just past the first days of fall, an icy bite already hangs in the air, the threat of a winter worse than the one we barely survived.

  My
stepmother’s quiet pragmatism cuts through Da’s bluster. “This is for the best. We could do with one less mouth to feed this winter, and with Owen in the ground, who would marry one as strange as her?”

  I am odd indeed because I believe women should choose their own fates, because I talk back, I don’t bow my head, I love to read, and I’m tired of belonging to my father and not to myself. There’s also the weird happenstance of me dreaming of things before they happen, leading to all sorts of hateful gossip. When Owen’s eyes first twinkled at me, his affection seemed like more of a gift because of all that, but . . . that future is no longer open to me. I must walk a different path.

  “Amarrah isn’t coming back?” That’s Tillie, snot streaming from her red nose. Her twin, Millie, bursts into fresh tears, and they both reach for me.

  I don’t move. Because Da has stepped back from the cart, lowering his head as if he agrees with my stepmother. Though I’m committed to this course, that stings a little, it does. But with Owen gone, nobody in Bitterburn will miss me. If I can end this, somehow, best that I get on with it. If not . . .

  I’ll be with you soon, my love.

  Briskly, I rap on the back of the cart with chapped knuckles. “Let’s go!”

  The silent miller seems glad to be shed of the dramatics my family is enacting. Though most ignore us, a few onlookers have gathered, whispering among themselves, and I’ve no wish to linger. Likely this is madness, and I’ll be murdered by the monster who dwells within the Keep at the End of the World. I don’t know whether I dread that conclusion or anticipate it. Either way, it’s an ending and I’m so tired. Tired of the cold, tired of the hunger, tired of never fitting in the space I’m meant to occupy.

  Evil stepmothers are a staple of the stories, but mine wasn’t evil so much as . . . disinterested. I wasn’t hers, and she never forgot it. Neither did I. But life wasn’t better when it was only Da and me because he made me his wife in so many respects. He expected me to cook and clean before I was big enough to wield the knife or hold the broom while he drank and shouted for my mother until I couldn’t stand to hear his voice. It was exhausting to be the only brightness in his world for so long, a smothering sort of attention. I rub the scar on my forearm, a memento of those days.

  “Amarrah,” he would bellow. “Come and sing for me, darling!”

  And I’d crawl out of the loft in the middle of the night, dance and sing while he drank, and . . . it was such a relief when he married Catherine, when he had two more daughters who could also dance and sing. The limelight slid away and gave me some room to breathe. But things were never the same either, as if I was a relic from a past he preferred to forget. When he looked at me, he remembered my mother, my lovely mother, struggling to breathe with bloody specks on her handkerchief. Owen was the only one who saw me as special, irreplaceable, but he was gone, the last tether keeping me here, and now I’m adrift, the final tribute the town will send to the citadel. Normally, there would be crates of provisions instead, but there’s none to spare, and I’ve persuaded the Burgher that offering me up presents our best option.

  The miller speaks at last. “Are you dead certain about this, girl? I can take you elsewhere if that’s your wish.”

  “Where would I go?” I ask. “No, I’m set on this course.”

  The miller makes a sound in his throat, clearly doubting my faculties, but I don’t respond as we cover the ground between town and keep. As we draw closer, the mules grow recalcitrant, braying and digging in their hooves on the frosty path. Finally, with the imposing walls in sight, they can be whipped or coaxed no closer, and I have no stomach to see the miller brutalize his animals. I clutch my portmanteau in both hands and clamber out of the cart.

  “I’ll walk from here,” I say with more assurance than I feel. “Thank you.”

  The miller pats my shoulder, but he doesn’t linger. Instead he begins coaxing the team to make a roundabout, and the mules seem eager to get away from this place. I understand their nerves. Though we’ve ascended some, the change in altitude can’t explain the chill that lingers in the air, as if spring never touches this place. A slow exhalation shows my breath as I take stock, noting the ice and snow clinging to fir trees. The air is crisp with pine, but that’s all. I detect nothing else, just the purity of cold and the silence of the grave. The view is breathtaking from up here; I can see the tiny lights of town, the silver-blue strip of the frozen lake, and an ocean of green-white trees.

  Steeling my resolve, I turn toward the keep and climb the rest of the way. The portcullis is firmly closed, and I stand on the outside, peering in. Why should this be different than anywhere else? Only as I stand there, the iron gate levers up with the groan of ancient metal, just enough for me to venture in, if I dare. The sound of my heartbeat thundering in my ears drowns out everything else when I cross that foreboding threshold. With no idea what awaits me, I press forward anyway because there’s nothing for me in town. My stepmother thinks of me as another mouth to feed, and my da didn’t contradict her. My sisters love me, but they’re wee girls, who might survive only if I’m not there.

  This truly is a fortress. I pass into a neglected courtyard, broken stones and withered vines with ice crystals formed all over them. This place was beautiful once, but it’s suffered from ages of neglect. The ice statues are uncanny in their precision, so lifelike that I expect the people to speak. Two doors lead out of the courtyard, and I have the eerie sensation that someone is watching me silently, monitoring what decision I’ll make. Mayhap my survival even hinges on my ability to choose.

  I study both options and find the handle of one more worn and the hinges are oiled. The other doesn’t seem to have been opened in years. Without reflecting too much, I choose the former because I want to meet the monster, don’t I? I have no interest in finding a corner and holing up to starve. It would be best if we could communicate first, but if this beast intends to kill me, let it be quick.

  The handle turns readily and the door swings inward with smooth, silent precision, revealing a dark corridor. Though I didn’t expect lamps in such a place, I shiver anyway and force my feet to carry me farther into enemy territory. It smells a bit dank from decaying fabrics and mildewed stone, as if the cold can’t keep the decomposition at bay. What if this place is empty? That would be the ultimate irony, if superstition robbed us of desperately needed supplies. I suppress a small, desperate chuckle.

  No, there’s someone—or something—here. Otherwise, how could the crates be inside? Nobody from town enters the keep and comes out alive. The mysterious denizen also opened the jaws of the keep to let me in, swallowing me whole. Possibly I shouldn’t think of such metaphors, but it does feel as if I’ve been devoured and my essence will be absorbed, a little at a time, into the grim hunger of this place.

  It still feels like someone is watching me.

  I pass through chill and empty hallways, explore the kitchen and larder, which is shockingly well-stocked, thanks to our annual donations. Some of the supplies have spoiled, and I embrace a fortifying wave of anger. To hell with my unseen host. If the monster prefers to play at hide-and-seek, then I’ll elect not to participate. It’s been six months since I saw this much food.

  The kitchen is massive, heavy stone walls with an immense worktable in the center, a few stools, and open shelves made of split beams that hold containers of dry beans, peas, and lentils. Other bins contain dry spices, salt, sugar, flour, and cornmeal. Pots and pans hang from the edges of the shelves, other cooking implements as well. Baskets of rotten food line the walls, and sacks in the pantry have gone bad too.

  I bang around the kitchen, cleaning, then I make even more noise lighting the enormous stove. This must have been installed later, as it’s more modern than the rest of the room. A kitchen this size is meant to feed an army, and from the oldest stories, this keep used to garrison at least four hundred. As to where the soldiers all went, our legends are unclear. Some say that there was a great battle and they died protecting the lord
of this place, who was later cursed for attacking a cantankerous warlock. Other accounts allege that the beast slew all the warriors and took this citadel as his own.

  Right now, I don’t care what’s true. All I know is that I have everything I need to make a hearty bean and barley soup. I can even bake some bread with what I’ve found. Bread and hot soup? Beyond luxurious. For a moment, I think of my sisters and their pinched faces. Somehow I doubt the beast will let me leave as easily as I came in, especially if I try to take food I’ve pilfered from the pantry.

  Defiantly, I light every candle I can find, until the kitchen glows with brightness. I even build up a fire in the hearth, using bits of broken furniture scattered throughout the keep. I might as well be full, toasty, and comfortable when I perish, if that’s my fate.

  Oddly, I’m not terrified. They say that familiarity eases fear, and maybe that’s true because now that I’m inside the keep, I decide that it might just be a neglected building. Perhaps the same is true of the mysterious master who dwells here?

  The sense of scrutiny never lets up as I work, but I finish cooking without seeing anyone. The bread is dense and heavy, as the ingredients aren’t fresh, but it still tastes good dipped in my soup. I eat every bite with gusto, and as I’m cleaning my bowl with a crust, someone speaks from the shadows, a menacing rasp that chills me to my marrow.

  “Who are you? And why have you invaded my home?”

  Spinning in a slow circle, I square my shoulders and try to face the general direction the words came from. “My name is Amarrah Brewer. And that is most unfair, sir. You can scarcely call it an invasion when you let me in.”

  “That was none of my doing. The keep does as it pleases.”

  I raise a brow. “Are you saying that this place has a mind of its own?”

  “Does that surprise you, little one? You’ve stepped inside a cluster of stones so ancient that they shame the old stories.”